February 22, 2025

HAPPY AND STRANGE NEW YEAR: SURGERY AND REBIRTH

I have decided to start writing again on my blog, every Saturday I will be sharing some relevant things about my week, so here I go.

This post will be long since it contains the most relevant things from January (to catch up). I started the year calmly, still with the emotional vibe of 2024 that was super intense for me, probably the most intense year of my life so far, but I will not talk about that here.

Returning from 2024 from Mexico to the United States, I was greeted by snow and very intense, the truth is I was happy to spend the cold days at home, with my cat, my daughter, finally in my studio, warm food and the fireplace.











Two weeks into January, and oh surprise! My first intervention in the surgery room, the truth is I was always terrified thinking that one day I would have to have surgery, but this time I didn't care at all and I just thought "let it be what it has to be" because in the end it is part of my process and if I can't control it, then, come on!



My experience was fantastic (not with the bill) I thought I would be half awake but oh surprise... the last thing I remember was that beautiful feminine energy of all women preparing me in the surgery room, I was lying on a stretcher no wider than 50 centimeters where the width of my body barely fit, the last thing I saw was the circular lamp full of circular lights, my last thought was "Surely something like this is what an abductee sees before they experiment on him."

When I opened my eyes I was already in another place, next to me a very handsome, young man, white skin, black hair and super blue eyes asking me if I felt okay.

It was very strange to wake up and realize that I had my consciousness again, that I could check my movements, I was not in pain, but it was strange to understand that immediately upon answering the man next to me, I was already speaking in English before my native language, it is strange how consciousness works and how there it is again remembering it all after a little more than an hour where I was "abducted" to have extracted a fat specimen.

After my return home I continued in shock, for me it was like a journey in space and time, where consciousness, spirit and matter were part of my subject to meditate.

Fun fact: A medication caused me dilation of the pupils and distortion of focus, the truth is I thought I was going to stay like that, the colors looked different and I thought I was already color blinded, but in a couple of days it returned to normal, thank God. I was so curious to know how my art would it be if my color range was totally different? all was intense red, and everything else just browns and dark greens.

To celebrate, I started my first painting of the year REBIRTH, with a theme and symbolism according to the snake, the truth is it was perfect for me to start the year after my surgery.

REBIRTH 🥚🐍

This is a self portrait welcoming the new one, with skin of a snake peeling and renewing, inspired by the Serpent regent of 2025 according to the Chinese astrology. This painting has a mixture between abstraction and figurative style, with a free style playing with doodles, textures and shapes.

The snake represents new beginnings, resurrection, rebirth, the new cycles, healing and power beyond mortality.




After a period of S.A.D and a surgery (my first one) where I spent almost 4 weeks without painting, this was the beginning of my change, my new energy and my a new start.

After this experience it is clear to me how incredible the surgeon is as a human being who is here fulfilling his mission, even though I did not realize anything. An experience that I will not forget despite not remembering.


In other instances...

Now the part that filled my soul with joy: One of mi abstract paintings was selected to be part of a show in Manchester, MO.

The show was called "CONTROLLED CHAOS"










TO SEE: Here you can see the video about my painting REBIRTH, you can see it from beginning to end.



TO EAT: This month I followed a recipe to make bread in the most simple way, I remember my first time a few years ago and it was a mess (who would think if this is so easy!) so I followed this recipe: EASY BREAD



TO LISTEN: I have been obsessed with Aurora's music since last year, and I was unable to stop her music inside my head, even when I was in the hospital or just doing the most simple or complex things, even when I wanted to sleep...has a super strong glue for me, WHY? I just LOVE the lyrics and the music, and her, I never felt so identified with some lyrics and singer as with hers, they can make me feel deep and even weep, but of course also think, laugh, dance, imagine. Here the song I have been singing most (ok, now I am listening and crying)  RUNNING WITH THE WOLVES



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